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there goes that logic...

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dearly beloved

Tue Oct 13, 2009, 7:07 PM
  • Mood: Emotional
  • Listening to: WW3 going on upstairs
  • Reading: text messages
  • Watching: the floor
  • Playing: computer
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: nothing
I suppose I have known this for quite a while now, but it didn't fully strike me until today.

While my sister hasn't literally died, the girl who was once my sister is gone. she has died in the worst possible sense.

don't ask me why I'm posting all this drabble online, if I knew there would be a good chance I wouldn't be posting it.

My sister loved fairy tales, she loved the ring of mushrooms in the back yard of our old house, and believed fairies would play there. my sister loved her red and blue teddy bear blanket, even years after she actually used it as such, but still kept it for the sake of keeping it. she loved stories, fantasy, adventure, and she loved to play the piano.

my sister still plays the piano,
but she also drinks alcohol, smokes cigarettes, pot, and snorts my mothers pain medication that she needs for her broken leg. she gets in peoples faces and threatens to get her way, if i don't keep my mouth shut about her and drugs apparently she'll cut me.

i told her i don't believe her, i know she can't simply because she's all talk. apparently she can also throw me over her shoulder or has done it before. i couldn't help but wonder where i was when this happened.

what scared me the most is that today, on my mothers birthday, when she was giving my mother so much pain and grief... i wanted to hit her, smack some sense into my sister so bad. i knew i could, i may not be a black belt but i have successfully defended myself against my sister before. I was afraid that I could, I didn't want to and somehow wanted to at the same time. I just wanted her to stop, to stop hurting my mother, trying to be so 'bad ass' going around threatening to cut people up

my sister is gone, and I've missed her

she isn't literally dead, but i don't know how else to describe it.

Some may think I'm being overly dramatic, that my sister can be saved, rehabilitated, countless other things. but right now, with my mom in tears threatening to call the cops to keep my sister at home

my sister is dead

and there is a different teenage girl living upstairs

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  • Interests: anime, manga, animation, ps2, cube, gba... and more
  • Favourite movie: i have to pick one?
  • Favourite band or musician: i'm eclectic, i like most kinds of music ^_^
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  • MP3 player of choice: the one i have
  • Favourite game: Jak & Daxter series and all the Zelda games... I own them all! Sly Cooper & Kingdom hearts
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:iconramblinquixotic:
Hey you! Watching you here on my new account now.:wave:My old one was :iconbriarrose86:, just so you know who the heck this is.:D Can't wait to see more updates on Missing Red, and all of your wonderful pics as well!:hug:

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:iconblazedrgn:
thank you for letting me know you've got a new account ^_^ hopefully i'll be able to upload something soon :D

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:iconmizu4evr:
Hello!

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:iconblazedrgn:
hi

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~Is the glass half empty or half full?
Neither, it is half full of liquid and its half full of air, thus the glass is full

~One day, Procrastinators will take over the world! .... whenever we get around to it anyway...
:iconmizu4evr:
How are you?

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:iconblazedrgn:
good, you?

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~Is the glass half empty or half full?
Neither, it is half full of liquid and its half full of air, thus the glass is full

~One day, Procrastinators will take over the world! .... whenever we get around to it anyway...
:iconmizu4evr:
lovely. Thanks for asking

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Thanks for the :+fav:! :D

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:iconblazedrgn:
welcome :D

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~Is the glass half empty or half full?
Neither, it is half full of liquid and its half full of air, thus the glass is full

~One day, Procrastinators will take over the world! .... whenever we get around to it anyway...
:iconksetrat:
rawr! need updates!!

*grins* i iz bored at work...

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